Today it started to hit me....

Today was the first day that it finally started to kind of sink in that I really am graduating in 25 days. I can't believe that in 25 days college will be a past tense, that I won't be going to Chi O to eat lunch every day, that I won't live in the same town as 95% of my friends, that in 25 days I have no idea what I will be doing with my life, that in that amount of time I somehow have to find the motivation to finish my school projects, that I have no need to order any more Chi O shirts, that Chicken Finger Friday will be a thing of the past, that I won't be walking across campus talking on the phone, that the center of my world won't be the University of Arkansas, that I'll be beginning to box up my room in a house I swear I just moved in to, that gym shorts and sorority shirts won't be my constant outfit, that I'll have a college degree, that the best four years of my life will be wrapping up, that I'll be done with school forever, that I'll be leaving the school I was so scared to start, that the same place that caused tears at the thought of moving away from everything I really knew now causes tears because I can't imagine my life just like this. Sorry for the incredibly long run on sentence but it's exactly what's on my mind right now. Like the blog title says I'm still trying to enjoy the moment and I am I think I am really appreciating each moment with my friends a little more whether it is a quick chat on the way across campus or running errands or watching a baseball game I just love it all so much! Here's a few random pictures of some of my most recent favorite college moments!

Lazy Friday Night

Today is one of those rare, cold, wet, all-around dreary nights. I got off work and had plans of going to eat with friends then we would head to the baseball game but the chilly temps and rain called off the second half of those plans. Katie & Heather & I went to eat at Chili's and made the executive decision that movies and cookies back at the house would be a much better end to our week than freezing at the baseball field. So currently I am sitting here listening to music and typing this while they are watching a scary movie on the TV. Lucky for me because they know me so well they also rented Billboard Dad so once this scary movie is off we are watching that! I just really can't even put into words how blessed I am to live the life I live. I just LOVE it so much and it literally makes me want to cry when I think that I graduate in less than a month and won't have the same faces to greet me each day after class or work. I know God has great things planned for my future and I'm excited to see what those plans look like but at the same time I just love my life right now so much I can't imagine it being much better, but I said the same thing about high school and college proved me wrong again with more fun and more friends so maybe the real world won't be as scary as it seems. I'm trying to play catch up for my little blog break, I still have some posts I need to do that will include pictures but right now I just felt like typing out all the little thoughts hopping around in my head. Happy Friday blog friends, I hope you have a great relaxing weekend!!

21 Plus 1, The First Anniversary of my 21st Birthday, aka Turning 22

So I celebrated my 22nd birthday in a way I have never done before for the first time in my now 22 years of life I did not wake up in my bed in Conway or see my parents on my birthday. I know this is not a big deal to most people but if you even mildly know me you probably know I am a family girl. I was born 6 weeks early and I'm pretty sure God gave me my birthday because he knew that I wasn't going to be okay with being away at college on my birthday. My parents came up the weekend before my birthday to do a family celebration which was fun. We went to dinner and opened presents and they brought up Ed's petite-fores which are my favorite! Then my mom came up again later on in the week to help me pack for spring break and she left some stuff for me at Jacob's apartment which included a card that said not to open until Saturday. The card was by far the coolest birthday card I have ever seen you opened it and it had a picture of a cupcake with a light up candle and when you "blew" out the candle the card started singing happy birthday! It made me super happy because even if you are going on a cruise a 10 hour car ride on your birthday is not the most exciting thing. Luckily Kara had made me a birthday car care package that included Glee cd's, gum, etc. My sweet friends made the best of a car birthday by letting me sleep most of the way there since the week before had worn me out. When we got to Kathryn's Aunt's house it was Kat's cousin's birthday (whose name is also Katie) too! So they put candles in cakes for both of us which was so nice and sweet of them! We went out for a little while in Houston that night which is definitely a very different city than Fayetteville, ha. I'm keeping the birthday celebration going this weekend when Dani and I are doing birthday dinner followed by a night out in Fayetteville on Friday! I'm super excited for that! I want to post pictures but I'm not really sure where my camera is currently so those will come at a later date! Thanks everyone for a FANTASTIC birthday! Lots of love!!

I sound like a broken record, but.......

So back to the same topic that comes up a million times a day in my mind and pretty much a million times on my blog, which makes sense because everything in my blog is what has been floating around in my head. Future...it's the big scary word that my friends and I only half-jokingly took a break from saying because it is so scary/exciting. I can't even tell you how many times a day I have a conversation with someone that revolves around this concept and with graduation approaching the topic of the future just keeps coming up more and more. Today while blog hopping I came across a post that reminded me of something really important, something I tell myself but have never really visualized. The idea is that while the future looks like a really big bolded question mark to me, it doesn't to God. Such a simple concept, right? I mean I have said it a million times, "God has a plan" yet I have never actually thought that God doesn't just have an idea type plan, he has a real, legit plan that he can see. I don't know why this is such a revelation to me but it really is a thought that I have never taken much time to imagine. God can see my future, he knows exactly where I will be in 6 months, what I will be doing, where I will be living, etc. I'm so thankful he knows exactly what my future looks like. While I am extremely eager for a peek into this future I am so grateful that my future doesn't look like a big question mark to Him. I'm mostly writing this post because I know sometime in this question mark of a future I have I will be clicking back through old blog posts and really get a good laugh at what I was doing a week away from my 22nd birthday when I was freaking out about a future I can't foresee. I know this will be the case because when I look back on my senior English scrapbook where I had to write a letter about my feelings toward high school graduation and college I just laugh and laugh. When I read the letter I can't help but giggle at the things that worried me that just played out perfectly in ways I could never have imagined. My parents tell me constantly to quit worrying, it will all work out and I think I am getting better (keyword better, not good) at that but its the reminders like the letter from my senior year in English that really cement the idea in stone for me. I could have saved so much time and energy if I would have just quit worrying and enjoy life the way it was meant to be. And back to enjoying life I'm going to call it a night because tomorrow I'm back to the lake to finish up the second half of my scuba certification! Sweet dreams bloggy friends!

Cap & Gown Day

Today I picked up my cap and gown for graduation. I'm not going to lie, it made me really sad. I am excited to see what the future holds but I absolutely LOVE college and can't believe it has been four years that I moved to Fayetteville and started school at the UofA. If you have known me since high school, you know that I felt the exact same way when I graduated high school. It's so weird that it has been four years since I stood in the long line waiting to pick up my Conway blue cap and gown at the West campus. I remember that day clearly, it was yearbook distribution day and that managed to keep my focus off of how sad I would be to graduate. Today I dreaded going to pick up my cap and gown from the bookstore, in my mind it's like this is just the start of all the things that signal my college career is coming to a close. I'm so excited to start the next chapter of my life but at the same time I'm going to really miss all the fun things I do in college and won't be able to do anymore. I can't imagine a time in my life when I will ever be so free to do and go as I please. I guess I can't dwell on how much I will miss it or I really will miss out on enjoying the few months I have left. I'm hoping that this next chapter will hold wonderful things I can't imagine now, similar to how college was better than my wildest dreams. I don't think I could've imagined what things would change over the past four years and how much I would grow up and love the life I'm living. I'm so hopeful that things for the future will pan out and that in four years I'll be writing a post talking about how I can't believe I've been out of college for four years and just how in love with my life I am at that point. Well, it's almost 11 and tomorrow's a work day so I'm going to bed. Sweet dreams bloggy friends!

3 Down, 87 to Go

So the goal for this year in the blogosphere was for me to blog 90 times. I've only done two so far, well this one makes 3 and I'm already struggling, ha. I refuse to start falling behind when I have no excuse so here goes. Let's see today was mostly spent trying to get organized and ready to head back to school. I start my internship on Wednesday and I am so excited/nervous/excited/nervous basically every 2 seconds my feelings change. I am really excited to get some really great experience at a place that I have been wanting to intern/work since my freshman year of college, but at the same time if you know me at all you know new things make my tummy hurt. I get so nervous when it comes to doing something new, I'm really trying to get better at not worrying and I think I've made some mild progress. I mean I was the kid who had to take mylanta for six weeks straight because kindergarten gave me separation anxiety...embarrassing, I know. I'm just ready to be three weeks into my internship and semester so I can know better what to expect and what I'm doing. To help me knock out one of the things I'm worried about my mom is going to help me try and figure out some work outfits tomorrow. I know this doesn't seem like a big deal but if I don't have to worry about creating some business outfit pre-8am the less stressed I'll be. Ok, so sorry for the ramble but that's basically all that has been on my mind for the past couple of days. The break is winding down which is always bittersweet. I am so excited to see my friends on Saturday but I'm also sad to leave home and my family.

So on to a more fun topic, this past weekend I went to a friend's wedding in Tulsa. This was my first friend/chi o wedding and it was SO MUCH fun! Dani and I stayed with Heather and she showed us around her hometown. The wedding was gorgeous and Kristen made a gorgeous bride. It was so much fun getting to catch up with all the Chi O's a year older than me who were at the wedding! All in all it was a GREAT weekend. All the pictures in this post are from the wedding reception!

It's Finally Friday!

It's finally Friday!!! Yay. This weekend is going to be a pretty chill weekend for me. The cough medicine was amazing I finally slept a full night and that was much needed. I recruited Sgibs to go see The Lovely Bones with me tonight after we attempt to hit up a spin class at the HPER. During my selling and sales management class today a woman from the career center came and discussed the upcoming career fair. The thought of actually being a grown-up in the real world with a real job makes me want to barf, but not as much as the thought of trying to find a big person job. I have no idea how I'm supposed to go about such a thing, ugh. Oh well that's definitely an issue I'm going to just ignore for the time being. I love Friday afternoons, I might like them more than any other part of the weekend. Friday afternoons are always so open and carefree and the whole weekend is in front of you. So far this Friday afternoon I've read some of my book, done a little facebooking, and will probably conclude it with a little nap. I can't think of anything else that makes for a more perfect afternoon, well maybe other than adding in a trip to Sonic. I feel as if my blog may make my life seem a little dull to others, but I just absolutely love it. I love the everydayness of things, don't get me wrong I love when exciting, busy, different things happen but for the most part I just really enjoy the everydayness of being me. I used to feel as if I should always have something really big going on or I should always being going out and I still feel that way sometimes but lately I have just been trying to remember that I don't always have to be doing something huge to have a good time. It's so hard for me to realize that it's okay if I'd rather go to the movie or out to dinner with my friends than go to some crazy party all the time. Well that was my little spill for today, ha. So my little happy moment for the day goes to the general Friday afternoon. There is just nothing happier than a Friday afternoon. And since I'm in the mindset that a blog post should include pictures here's yet another old picture from last semester. Hope everyone has a great Friday afternoon/evening!